Sucks to Be ME

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Yeah. Yeah. Everyone thinks that.

Everyone thinks about themselves.

I think at some point in every one's life they sink to the bottom. I remember doing bobs in the deep end of the pool for hours and hours in the summer.

I'd touch bottom then sprung up to jump out of the water for one cystalline second...

SPLASH! Back in the water like a fish!

I cannot see the top of the water at this particular moment.

No job. ALL ask applicant to be "fully graduated of a post-grad program" which only exists in those places that want to spend the time and money to train someone in phlebotomy and ivs and other assorted actions I was not taught in the LPN program.

Hmmmmmmm, no one ever told me~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

it was gonna be easy.

But jeezo no one ever warned of how rough things can get either.

Nothing Much

No answers to applications. I'm going to need to bet some real world clothes and go out on foot to apply in person. OY.

I HATE buying clothes. Nothing fits the right way. I have no idea what kind if clothes to get. I have a serious budget issue so I may be hitting GoodWill. I found a dress for graduation for $8 at Ross so I am sure I can find something more professional than mommy for under $100.

Everything else is pretty much the same. Spouse is racheting up the stress factor. Not on purpose. It's just how he gets.

And the days keep coming and going.

My Wierd Life

I am sitting here with a 45 pound pit bull on my left side, hogging the warm air from my laptop fan and he sleeps, barely fitting on the width of the couch. He wakes up once in a while and I rub his pink belly. He's a blue nose/pink nose pit bull so his nose is black with a bit of pink above it and his belly is tinted pink.

My spouse is in bed, asleep by 9p.m. He'll be awake at 5a.m. because I was too dumb to notice his biorhythms while we were dating. I'm opposite in the sleep/wake cycle of life.

I filled out several job applications this weekend. I'm 47 and have NO experience looking for jobs or being interviewed. My many hours in PTA, and little league board and soccer mom and classroom volunteer extraordinaire did little to prepare me socially for the working world.

As most of you know I struggled greatly in the past year when it came to keeping my mouth shut, learning from listening instead of interaction, to NOT ask questions that made me seem too intelligent or as my director saw it, a little miss know it all.

If I stay quiet people think I'm judging or stuck up, if I open my mouth they know I'm an idiot cuz I can't stop myself from saying too much or saying something in a manner many people misunderstand up here in the Northwest. My East Coast/Midwest friends get sarcasm, no one here really does. After 20 years here I understand that. I have toned it down 98%.

I think I need manners lessons. Seriously. Or deportment. Because I cannot change my entire personality, I know cuz I have tried. I know I don't fit in here very well but it's where I am. Anyone have expertise in giving one a lobotomy????

AGAIN~~WHY??

RIP

Those killed at Food Hood

November 5, 2009

God Bless and heal the wounded,

both mentally and physically.

Thanks for The Support

My friends and silent supporters,

THANK YOU!

Thank you for reading.
Thank you for the empathy.
Thank you for merely showing up.

Without your support I could not have achieved my goals.

You held me up when I needed.
You made me laugh when I despaired.
You hugged me when I was sad, defeated, and ready to quit.

This is our success. I share it with you.

Thank you for being my friends.

To answer a question or two.....
Yes, I have plans to get my R.N. and my B.S.N. This is off in the future sometime when we have funding and experience. If things go the way I have dreamed I'll be in college in some capacity for the rest of my life.

I can't answer exactly how the NCLEX questions were different from what I expected. I'd like to keep my brand new license. :P I expected what the books said. I used Mosby's review book the most but I also dipped into Davis and a friend's book. Syntax was different that I was familiar with and critical thinking was needed to answer the questions. Who knew? SNERK.

Go in a good attitude, in a calm mood, and know the worst that can happen is to flunk. No one in my class has flunked. I had a class of 23 and I'm not sure how some of them made it through first quarter let alone boards. Know your facts but be ready to read each question twice before you hit the answer.

You folks are RADICALLY COOL. Thanks a million.

Extra Letters

Janice Reijnaert, L.P.N.

Test Talk

well, well, well I learn for over a year how to take the test.

I get to the testing center.

I read first question.....................

First thought: THIS IS NOTHING LIKE THE 5000 QUESTIONS I HAVE BEEN DOING!!!!!

I did my best.

I do not know if I did well.

I don't know if I sucked wind.

Find out Friday.

I'm proud of myself no matter what.

I got this far didn't I? wink, wink, nudge, nudge......................snerk